missing already

made a huge step today. i hope it was the right one. i kind of feel relieved. but i also feel unsure. maybe that's the battered woman syndrome that lives deep within me. working on it...

no way to start the new year

lost. alone. afraid. confused. hurt. disappointed. unmotivated. ashamed. depressed.

i know only i have the power to change all of this, but i needed to take this moment to list how i feel so i can address each feeling one by one

crazy for you

share. crazy. loose. free. loved. good. bad. roll with it. don't define it. angry. insecure. unappreciative. ugly. sexy. enough. too little. ashamed. guilty. honored. special. honest. high. worried. confused. don't try to understand it. run away. far. never look back. just be grateful. let go. best choices. worst choices. only GOD knows. speak to me. speak to me. speak to me please.